It's Against

It's against what I know,
and I can't complain.
It's inside agony,
and inside pain.
I don't know how this started,
but it's deeper than a black hole.
It's deeper than forever,
and I've lost all hope.
It's against all promises,
that I have sworn to protect.
It's inside these promises,
that I now have to forget.
I don't know how this happened,
me loosing myself.
Loosing my self conscious,
I don't need help.
It's against all hope,
and against all odds.
I don't know how to stop,
this feeling of being lost.
It's bigger than the sky,
bigger than forever.
It's bigger than all odds,
to be continued forever.
It's against the Heaven's,
let alone hell.
It's making me loose focus,
and now I am not well.
I cannot tell,
if we'll make it out alive.
Against the tide,
of what lies inside.
It's against the light in the darkness,
now the light is gone.
It's never to be found,
but only lost.
Oh, why can't I see,
this pain that this has caused me?
Living on the run,
living for the free.